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hellos.holidays. are. here.

2006-06-01T00:16:00.003+08:00

hellos.. holidays are here. isnt it fast? half a year has just flown by. =) and i didnt spend it well.

i, erhem, promise myself to do well and better for myself in the next half of the year. i must and i will do well. i will not let anything obstruct me.

signed,
___x___

hahas.. isnt that simple? whoever who has not done well with me the previous half of the year, let us jia you and progress together! =) gtg. blog nxt time.. biez..

hellos.holidays. are. here.

2006-06-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

hellos.holidays. are. here.

2006-06-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

hellos.

2006-06-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

Ronin rawking!

2006-05-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

Oh oh oh.. oh oh oh.. dancing with balck Maria..
Oh oh oh.. oh oh oh.. Rocking with CEdar Gals!!

Hahas.. today, is the last day of skool! =)
THe first post-exam programme is the best ever in the whole wide world!!! =)
It's 98.7's roadshow!!! & Ronin came our skool! hahas.. First, we reach the hall. It was blasting with music!!! =) and we sat down. Faith asked the albino guy for his autograph. & i'm like so jealous!!!=P hahas.. after that, the real thing began. they intro themselves etc n shawn and the albino guy performed acoustic. they were Victorians! hahas.. Cedar's Bro School! =) lalas.. after that, the whole band came to play. they asked us all to stand up n go wild, which we did!!! =) then they played many songs!!! =) lalas.. we were jumping and screaming and just simply going crazy. we were like madd lah! hahas.. staff was standing behind me. =) oh yah.. i din tell you.. later then say.. lemme continue.. so we went crazy. some of us even took off our ties n threw it on stage!!! =) hahas.. then it was over. they sold their tickets for this concert at Whitley Sec sch & it's on the last fri of hols.. so cant go coz will still be at camp!!! sighs... hahas.. den aft tt, i wasnt jealous of faith at all!!! hahas.. i got both shawn n the albino guy to sign!!! =) so cool!!! =) hahas.. i love ronin man! told Zee.. she damn jealous... =P hahas..

Wednesday, i went for parade. it was the last.. sighs.. so sad.. but we had uber funn!!! =) we had orienteering.. It was far much better than PT lahs... =) although the distance is further... but it was more funnn!!! =) i was paired up with jasmine.. lucky me.. lucky it isnt pple i don like... =) we were like rushing all the way...hahas.. although i din go for the first orienteering,appened to read the map better than jasmine... hahas... we got a lil lost at times but after studying the map for a few times in a different view, we managed to find our way. It taught me tt maybe if u look at things in another way, it'll look better n u mite solve your problem... =) we got tailed by dogs twice n we were overtime. hahas... actually all of us were...=) lalas... bet we'll fail man! hahas... but it was funn anyway... =) a lot of things happen..

then we had drills for a while...

then interaction. so funn!!! =)

then we had party!!!we ate the food we bought during orienteering!!!=)) after that we partied till the whole place was like messy... hahas.. bleh... then we got not enuff cups so must share... then i suppose to share with ruby n boon hui but staff lemme share with her!!! hahas.. lalas.. so touching.. not obessed with her or anything.. but shes so nice!!! =) hahas.. all the partB'06 specs rawks!!! =) haiz.. so sadd it's like their last parade with us... sighs... but we'll always love them!!! =)

hmmm... this last week was uber funn... just not the last part of friday in sku... it sux. the receiving of report book. dont talk to me about my results. shut up. zip. i totally flunked... but will top the class the nxt semester... =)

gtg... havent bathe yet.. biez!!!=)

sad. or nice?

2006-05-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hello! i'm back and i'm sick.=) cough and cough and cough. =)

this week is a nice week. With best practice day going on..

Best practice day: tuesday, the uni grp will inter-change with each other. so our first station was the girl guides one. we learnt bout how to build a camp fire. It was fun! =) we tried like 3 times before we could get a perfect nice campfire! =) then we went to NPCC. it was pretty funn.. muah grp first station was the window thingy where u stand on the bar den you suppose to get over the other side by holding the lower bar etc. =) then we became monkeys! =) there's this rope then u're suppose to hang upside down and climb and change position. i did it! it's so fun but so pain! hahas.. rightt.. shldnt haf worn ankle socks... hahas... so there! there's a reason not to wear ankle socks! =) then we went the red cross one. Sining came to give us the banana with chocolate to eat.. no offence... but...it doesnt realli taste nice...=P... then at the red cross, we learnt how to make a make shift stretcher. =) with the bandages. then we carried ravin and boon hui! =) then the red cross sec4 ma'ams they built another one and carried staff wanxin. she kept on laughing lah! so scary her laughter.. but very farni...=) hahas... then we learnt how to make fake wound! with petroleum jelly, red dye, brown dye and honey. Ewww... hahas.. but it was funn.. with a lil bit of tissue... =) hahas... that's about all...

today's LJ: wow... i bet our combination sux. hahas.. the 4Fs... Frog Farm & Fish Farm... right... first we went the frog farm. we reached first.. kinda.. den we walked around the place. then the uncle came to explain to us how to identify the male and female frogs... the males haf brighter colours, meaning it's not tt dull as the female, and they haf this gigantic ring beside their eyes. the female, more dull and smaller rings.. =) hahas... and we saw the mating pond of the frog and stuff... then, the most interesting part of tt stoopid learning journey... the bisection of frog. which is alive!!! =) so we went to this room. it is wet and bloody. hahas.. many people went out crying... hahas.. rightt... the uncle just took this frog out and stroked it. he purposely pretend and act as if he was gonna chop and many people screamed. hahas... oh yah.. frog have teeth at the upper mouth. and then he really chopped. wow. it's like... in an instant, a life is gone... i pity the frog. = and then he slit the skin off like tearing off a suit of someone and took out all the internal organs of the frog. hahas... right...

next stop. the fish farm. hmmm... it kinda sounds interesting. like qian hu where all the deco fishes are available. but... it was kinda disappointing. hahas.. it was just 5 min drive from the frog farm. and it isnt qian hu. It's dis crazy farm which does import and export of seafood. and also has frogs. rightt... hahas... then we walked around the place. the ponds were like greenish and cloudy. we then know tt those greeny stuff are algae. right. so we din get to see fish. we saw... the only thing. Algae. perhaps the farm would like to change to be called Algae farm. =) Mr Chan say the uncle say it's to prevent the fishes from getting UV rays. rightt.. y not just get them covered in sun block? hahas... right... then we went in. the uncle took fishes outta their tanks and put on the floor. hahas... the fish was like struggling desperately to no avail of course. hahas.. then we went rightt back to sku aft tt.. isnt tt so interesting?

then i went for parade! =) the last parade for the term. abd they say aft the june hols partCs taking over. =( i don really tink i'll like them. it's like... they're not very nice. they dont seem to be nice.. rightt... and we had orienteering! =) the first event!

the orienteering...: i was paired up with jasmine!=) and we were like... ok... hhahas.. then i haf absolutely no idea wat to do. so we went to our first stop to find "barcodes" we ran up and down the road and finally found. we purposely don let gin they all see what we found. so we purposely pretend. hahas... there were like 88 stripes lah! hahas.. we count until siao. hahas... then we ran in and found the drain. and we use the compass to see the direction... and after that, we go and find the sign. and whateva the sign was, we found this crazi sticker at the lift landing at the void deck. so we hack care anyhow draw. aft tt, we went to find the salon. it was suppose to be missing. but a lot of us found this tongtong beauty and health salon. hahas... so we just wrote down... and aft tt, we go and find a lot of stuff... we got chased twice by two dogs. hahas... first was we were pretty lost and walked some crazi road into this estate. Private estate. there was this dog waiting outside a gate for the owner i guess.. it started following us. rather jasmine. cause she was behind me one metre away. hahas... she was so scared. she kept asking me whether the dog was still there. hahas... it was! she is like Oh No! ... hahas.. after that, it was like at her heels lah. aft a while it was gone...hahas... the second time was like a dog ran out from a hse and then started barking at me. the aunty said dont scared! it wont bite! hahas... i was like oh my... ahaha... lols.. the dog followed us until the cross road... then it just left us alone.hahas... then we were like lost for like twice or thrice. hahas... but in the end, we managed to finish the thing. but we were late for like 20 min. =) hahas..but not the last.

cant talk too much bout it. too long. ask me if u wanna! =)

then we did drills. it was pretty ok. and then we had interaction! it was like so funn but sad... cause it be the last interaction. i tink . hahas... it was a wonderful day. not too wonderful though...
i'm so sick... keep coughing... now very uncomfortable... gtg... biez! cya guys and gals! =)

lalas..

2006-05-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

hahas..
HELLO! =)

today's cross-country! =) lalas.. i woke up at like erh.. 5.21. lols.. then i faster change and crap cause i need to be at the reservoir at like 6.45 am. and it's like so dark! lols.. cause i haf duty..lols..then i went there..was suppose to meet jasmine at like 6.15. but she was late. so i went to change first..lols.. then i met hafiza. hahas.. then we were going to change tt time ms Ng Bee Sun asked us to help her move the drinks to the tents.. so we helped. and after that, we were like arh.. late.. haiz.. i faster dragged Zi Hui or rather Zi Hui volunteered herself to go with me to the toilet cause it was very very dark. and i meant it. it's creepy lor.. i faster changed and we went to assemble.lols..aft tt, we went to do our first duty. Carpark duty. and when we went to do, amelia chua appeared! freaky her.. arh haha.. i hate muah no 3. lalas.. coz it sux. hahas..

then soon, NPCC came to take over. hahas.. then we rest and went to do the finishing line duty.=) soon, the sec 2 race started. after a while, a few bunches of pple came racing down hill.. elsia they all..lols.. they run until face white lor.. lols. poor things.. but we worse.. our legs until now still aching..lols..and i cheered for them..=)

after that, i cheered for everyone and anyone who passed by me. n i mistook two pple.. lols.. for muah frewns.. *blushes* shant say who..lols..

then we were like rushing to change after we bersurai..lols..then we brought all our stuff into toilet liaos.. then we were gonna strip when suddenly encik came in and said " part Bs, u all dont change yet. change onli aft the whole thing is over." hahas.. then a lot of us alreadi started stripping and stuff.. lols.. so farni.. then we went back out and everything..lols.. then the prize presentation we cheered a lot for a lot of pple.. =) so funn! =) we rawk! lols..then sgt dhilshad came over and thanked us for cheering her on cause she really appreciated it! =) You're welcome sgt! =) hahas..

then we were like aft the whole thing all of us charged to the toilet.. all. as in our seniors and NPCC. the NPCC very horrible leh.. they say we stink when it's them lor..lols.. they crazy one.. like they smell very nice lor..lols.. and some more they damn slack lah.. do duty still can walk around one..lols..

aft changing, we went to j8.then when we go and take the bus, there are two bus stops. so we dunno which one to take from.. then we kept crossing over. lols.. so farni. and the specs all took same bus as us and were crossing the road as confusely as us! =) hahas.. then the bus was packed and it stinked. hahas.. we evil gals.. hahas.. then we went to eat lunch 2gether. then cause no space and the place we going to eat no halal food, the malays split with us. the went pizza hut at PS. we went upstairs food court and crapped..lols.. then part Cs oso there..lols.. then we all go and buy food. then the trackers sec2s and miss poon was there..lols.. then we were like OMG.lols.. then Zhao ming keep taking 4tos and her milo spilled. lols.. a lot of things happened cant explain too much. hahas.. and then we were bored. so we decided to go PS and find the malays.. lols..

oh yah.. did i sae? we met amelia again. sicko..lols..

then we took mrt there. then we were like sitting on a bench and we went leaning against each others' backs and sang very very loudly " imagine me and you, and you and me. no matter how they toss the dice, it'll always be, the only one for me is you and you for me, so happy together!!!!! dadadadadadadadadadadadadadada....~" lols.. so farni.. we're madd.. some more everyone around us were staring at us lah! so mah lu. but very farni.. =) lols.. then we popped by pizza hut and ate some of the malays' food..lols.. so farni.. den we all went slacking arnd. oh yah. we played hide and seek and the neoprint machine there.=)

we went action city at first.. then me, zhao ming and fiona went into action city. to see sth.. then when we came out, we cldnt find them. so i called gin. she said they were at a very nice place slacking at the action city there. so i went the neoprint machine down there to find them. then zm n fion walked very slow. so i found them at the neoprint machine slacking inside. so i joined them.. then we saw outside zm n fion's shoes. so we were like wanting to laugh lah. then aft tt they were like where the hell are they? lols.. then they walked like 3 rounds and found us..lols.. then we were like bursting with laughter liao lah.. lols.. then zm found us. she said she walked the first time din c. second time say gin's shoes but tot it was other pple. and the third time, she saw jasmine's plastic bag and her wallet.lols.. so there we go. she found us.lols.. then we slacked at the machine inside the seats there.lols.. and we went visiting all the other machines slacking..lols.. so funn.. then we went back home.. sadds.. and just now i got violin.. sicko.. so tired..

tmr got meet-the-parents! haiz.. dead. i'm sick.. lalas.. =)

gtg.. biez!

-luff, <33 xj-

being me isnt easy..

2006-05-17T18:29:00.000+08:00

-hellow.-

hi people..long time no come..=( .. so sad..haiz..last sunday wasnt very nice..yepps..haiz..clashes-part of growing up.. rightt..haiz.. anyways.. it's like that.. i shall tell u the whole story from top to bottom..

Sunday. Mother's Day cum our church's stoopid "PARENTS DAY"..
Morning:
i went to church. on my way, xiu juan lao shi called me. she asked us to sit at the back two rows so that we can book and wont b so troublesome to take the things out. and she said she called Sam n Becca & eqagnes they all and jasmine they all she nv call. so i reached first and went to book.. then pple started streaming in. Jessie Tan Yuxin came. i asked her to sit there. she came and said y sit until so back? i explained to her what xiu juan lao shi told and explained to me... she put her stuff down and kept arguing with me y must we sit at the back. i got tired n pissed. maybe her comprehension level is not as high as mine. soon, her sis came and wanted to sit. she tried to "explain" in the wrong way of course..she never know how to explain. she practically tried to frame me. by explaining to her sis in a sick way. acting like she tired of me (when i'm the one whos tired of her) and tt it's like my fault. yaya. wadeva. so she asked me to explain to her sis. amazingly, i managed to explain and her sister, being a nice and understanding senior, moved.=) then we just sat there and stuff.

Sunday Morning Time: 10.30 a.m.:
I opened the cupboard and got the younger ones to help move the things down. the three "nice" young ladies just sat there with their butts sticking to their chair, enjoying themselves, watching the programmes. they wldnt even move 1mm to help us. what a great help.. *rolls eyes* i'm damn touched. hmm.. lemme continue.. after the young ones moved the things down, i locked the cupboard and the three young ladies were still stuck onto the chairs, making no effort to move their asses out of the chair. I asked them to go down immediately with me. they refused. their "big sister" Agnes Tan Enqi, replied me saying she wanted to watch her mother perform and stuff. I knew the programme will end late at like 10.45, which it did, and thus told them. they said they'll go down rightt after it end. like 10.45 they will go down? that's damn early lor.. I'm trying to be sacarstic. as i find no reason not to be sacarstic to criticize these lazy so damn helpful and filled with initiative people. and aft tt, i din gave a damn to them and just stormed off. and that Agnes Tan was actually pissed with me?

i went down.Xiu juan lao shi came early. and we were all prepared to practice. the three young girls werent down yet. no a single sight of them. isnt tt nice? wadeva.i smsed them to tell them to come down immediately and practice cause xiu juan lao shi came down early to practice with us if not she'll not be practicing with us but with the adults. so.. this is how it went. the sky turned black and the three girls appeared. actually, the sky's colour resembles their face colour which was as black as justice Bao. but the sky..wasnt black.It was clear and sunny. but their faces werent. =) They threw a fit and gave all of us super black faces. I guess they just didnt put whitening lotion on their faces that day. *rolls eyes* and we practiced arnd like three times? any way..

after we practiced, they stormed off opposite to get their "breakfast" aka instant noodles and crap. without me. they just marched off and went over without asking me or anything. tt's so nice. I just realised i have such nice frewns.=) i must thank God.

11am: they werent back yet. every one was waiting for them. the whole world. the service was supposed to be at 11a.m.xiu juan lao shi was jumping up and down in fury asking their parents and complaining to their parents. and Agnes Tan's mum called them back. they were just crossing the road. oh. that's so fast. ahahas..anyways, while they were gone, i cried. hahas.. i'm stoopid to cry over them. wow. i just realised. how slow can i be? they're not worth my attention. anyways.. they're so understanding. i'm just carrying out instructions lah! and they're so nice not to co-operate. wow. then i cried and cried. in the hall rightt b4 the prog lah! sobs.. lao shi ask me wad happened and izzit because of them and the younger ones asked lao shi wad happened to me. they're so nice and caring!! as in the younger ones.. =) realli! =) hahas.. and i faster dried my tears, calm my feelings, and tried to look cheerful. Agnes Tan was suppose to stand beside me. but on stage, she purposely changed position with Samuel.

aft the prog, i went home. Jin jin was at home. so it was pretty ok. and she poo-ed everywhere. i had to clean up... hahas.. and i watched mighty Joe Young. so nice. it was muah second time watching.. hahas.. but i still cried. cause mayb i had to release muah tears well.. =)

so yesterday, xiu juan lao shi called me to ask me how i was n wad happened.. i told her. and she understood. she said sam also called them to come down and he was very angry with them too. and she like shared with me lots of stuff. i had learnt to pray for muah future and blessings from God from the convo with her... we talked for like 2 hours lah..lols..bills burst lah! hahas.. anyways.. i'm not gonna talk to them. i bet they forget who they had hurt and how they hurt me. i dont give a damn man! that's the spirit! =) hahas..

i want the violin on auction! n its price broke the record bidding for this year! ahahas!!! it's so nice lah!=) hahas.. gtg..this wk's so messy..lols.. 2mr we performing in front of whole skool i tink.. muah music grp.. =) we rawk.. but ours is like mickey mouse march and then the others are like Jay Chou and SHE songs.. inferior sia!! lols.. but ms chye say she likes our playing leh..lols..
and then right.. i managed to finish muah recording lah! =) and i was the first to let her hear! and she likes it! she said it was good! and then she made me her "representative" or "helper" to go arnd and help her..=) so pro rightt me! =)
and i wanna go MEP!! =)
I love MUSIc!!! =)))))))

lalas..!!! =)

-love loads, xj-=)

p.s. muah panda drawn during the post-exam prog is like sho cute!!! =)

wadeva.

2006-05-08T19:06:00.000+08:00

hellos.

this happened..
one fine day..
Ruby, Ravin, Nevy & Neha went to the computer lab for chinese cause they are non-chinese..and..neha happened to pass by this blog.muah blog.thanks Neha.and Ruby, thus read it. about the part that pple hu build their happiness on muah sadness and grief.and after that, she came into class.during math,she wrote a note to me.. "if you have any problem with me, you can tell me straight on the face.Don't need to write about it all over your blog." hahas.. rite.. in the first place, it's IN her face. nxt, i din write it ALL OVER my blog. ahah.. that's the mistake. aniwaes. i said sowie. but i still meant it. the building thingy. she hurt me. well. i wont get hurt.
and today, CO nite.. hmmm.. i went. din want to go one. =) cause i'm sick and uncomfortable.. and though i m uncomfortable, my "DEAR" pltmates dont understand. tt's pathetic. and they started to "NAG" or rather "scold" me tt i shld act more dramatically.. rite. how can i do it when i m feeling uncomfortable? and ruby? she din go.that's so nice of her.. she always nv go..at least i went for 2.. hahas..so sick..den still have so much hw.. argh..sicko. i hate them.. i don mind saying it. cause i'm just stating a fact!!! FYI!

wadeva. ~
'i cant stand it. i will not be ordered around and get told what to do.

lalas.. hmm.. Ying Si.. aka Fatty Si.. said i look gloomy.. even jennifer says it too..lols.. hmm.. well.. mayb i m.. lols.. gtg.

BYEZ!=)

lalas..

2006-05-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hies!

lols..the sec4s having MYE..lols..pity Amelia..hope she does well..=) all the best to her and any sec4s who viewed muah blog. lols.. hmmm..hahas..life is okay..lols..hmm..lemme recall wad has happened..me and amelia e-mailed each other..and..erm..recently not much hw and no tests..feels weird.lols..it's like normally we have loads of tests..but now like nth den feel very xian..lols..yesterday me and raylia went national library to study.lols..so crowded..as in no table for us to sit..but not noisy..lols..then..we were like touring that place..lols..then..hmm..

Monday-> Mayday. they came muah hse to do History pagaent and the IPw. lols..It was pretty funn..

Tuesday->erm..back to sku..

Wednesday-> Li jie all of them sick..i tink they got it from me..lols..coz i was sick..=)

2dae->erm..ok lah..but erh-hem. i got muah second..erh-hem..erm..shld i be saying all this. aniways..

lols..taking up theory very soon. becoming a nerd more soon..lols.. i realised i've been slacking for the past semester..lols..and meet the parents coming up soon.. i'm praying that mrs Ng will shut up. lols.. i totally flunked muah math lah! lols.. i hate math.. okies..the power of words.i just HAVENT STARTED LIKING math.. rite..lols..hmmm.. i'm so bored..lols..

oh yah! and muah music grp, who got the highest for the performance, is playing for meet the parents i think.. and we're gonna practice 2mr.. =) wish us all the best! =)

-with loads of heart, mu-ee! -

hahas..

2006-04-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

hahas.. yesterday we went shopping!! hahas.. lols.. me, zee and py. =) hahas.. actually we wanted to go pasir ris beach to walk walk and crycry one.. but.. hahas.. den in the end we reached pasir ris interchange.. den we xian half way.. hahas.. den in the end, we ended up walking at White Sands only a while. and decided not to go to the beach.. hahas..after that, we took MRT to Somerset. and there we went.. shopping down orchard road!! =) hahas.. it was plain fun..hahas.. we went heeren. HMV. that's where we crapped. hahas.. running up and down the escalator.. =) hahas.. Zee bought a cd. shes a serious punk rock gal.hahas.. then py, the idol drama fan.. esp of 5566..hahas.. so crappy. hahas.. she wanted to buy this series of drama acted by 5566. hahas.. and know what? one volume is like 37 bucks. hahas.. somemore got 6-7 volumes! hahas.. that'll cost her like 200 for all the volumes! hahas.. =) that's so lame.. hahas.. then we took neos! =) muah hobby.. =) hahas.. oh yah..we saw chun keet st somerset MRT! and hes grown taller! hahas..

to be continued... gotta go..

back to the beginning. the past. like we used to be.

2006-04-28T19:31:00.000+08:00

heys people..i'm so glad..lols.. kinda reconcile with Amelia yesterday!!=) hahas.. i smsed her bro's no. saying.. : whether be it you are AMelia or Amelia's bro, please ask Amelia to check her e-mail.thanks. and i heard she looks happy today after her papers.how were her papers?... and the reply was: hello..xiao jun?Amelia here,borrowing my bor's phone to sms :P haha..i sent e-mail o'er cos i came hm early,e paper was relatively hard,but i pulled thru :) . these were the exact words.. lols.. then she e-mailed me saying she din receive the e-mail i sent. is she lying?? and after that, she sent me the supposedly march holidays letter.. but.. i thought.. she forgot it? ... i expected her to forget bout it. but she din. or is it she read the e-mail but din wanna talk about it? .. i dont know. . . haiz.. but..then..she said she reminded herself that she must send a letter to me. but she always forget.. and shes guilty about that. and she said she and the exco members they switched duties. lols..so Cedarians.. thats why you dont hear Amelia's sweet voice over the microphone every morning saying good morning..lols.. rite.. crazi me.. Amelia's voice is not sweet..NAh Nah. not at all.. hahas..let's not be horrible. fine. it's "sweet"... lols.. aniways.. then she said a lot of stuff.. yah.. too bad the letter is deleted.lols..

2mr i'm going to the beach with ZeeMin and Pei Yun!!! =) we rawk! so funn!! after that we going shopping..hahas.. =)

gotta go nows.. biez.. luvya! <33

liFe.

2006-04-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

Heys..hahas..so far dis week's not realli happy.. On Monday..when i was at the courtyard, i saw her. she was staring at me. does that mean she read the letter/e-mail alreadi?.. Tuesday. we had PE with her class. we played bball. she was playing vball with her frens.or rather anyhow hitting the ball.she din look at me.did i? ... i cant seem to forget her. has she read the letter?? .. It puzzles me. i just wanna live. but is it so hard? haiz.. WEdnesday.. 2dae. No NCC. =) i guess i'm suppose to be glad? lols.. but had TOP. haiz.. So hard lorhs.. the Science was like i din haf time to finish. and Maths? i anyhow do. lols.. a lot of muah questions no answers one.. lols.. i've been breaking down to tears a lot recently. ask li jie. all of the sudden i can just start crying.. why?..i miss her. but i dunno what to do. i was suppose to have broken up with her. but does she know? i dont know what to do. shld i smile at her? shld i say hi to her? i remembered once.. i asked her.."What would you do if i lost my memory about us? Will you bother to help me recover my memory, let this memory of mine be lost, or start everything anew?" she said" i'll help you recover. but if really cant, we'll start anew."... but. it was in the past. if we knew what will happen now, will we be willing to treasure each other? maybe. maybe shes just too busy.
back to today. I'm starting not to like Ruby. wadeva. shes.. evil..horrible..inconsiderate..building her happiness on other people's grief. shes as good as.. SATAN!. i mean it. lols. laugh at me? i'll make sure she gets her own medicine back. & i mean this too. =) recently.. i went to dreamers. so funni..lols.. the jokes there.. lols.. super duper lame and farni!!!=) haiz.. i hate art. lols.. sux. or rather i suck at it...=))

-breaking up is never easy. nobody said it will be. neither did they say it is. my heart is broken. unmendable. what is forever?-

...

2006-04-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

heys.. let me share the e-mail i wrote to Amelia..
Date:
Sat, 22 Apr 2006 12:13:11 +0800 (CST)
From:
XJ
To:
Amelia

Heys..i've been pondering whether to write or talk to you or not. since you din even tell me you've changed number or wad's been going on, i thought you wanted to break off contacts. so i've been trying my best to forget everything about you. every single thing. and the letter you owed me since March holidays, i think you can forget about it. oh no.. i forgot. you have already forgotten about it. long forgotten and cleanly too. wad's going on.. i dont know either. i dunno why too but i've been breaking down a lot recently. wad is forever? why do people always use things like "friends forever"? anyway.. i tried something faith bought. it's called the magic 8 ball. you ask a yes/no question and it'll answer. i asked a lot of questions and it answered yes. but i doubt the answers anyway. shall not tell you the questions. so i guess we can just carry on with our lives.. you can carry on with your busy life without bothering about me. i'm bothersome. right. you're irritated. as many says. i trust their words now. not yours. i will only say hi to you if you say to me. anyway.. you dont see me.do you? i'm so near you yet you can pass by without saying hi. that's nice of you. i'm going to stop all letter writing and everything to you. it'll save me a lot of paper and ink and brain cells and energy and care and love and everything. i'm giving you up. giving all memories about you away. threw away everything about you already. so i'm erasing you away. your bro told me you're using another no till you get a new fone. so i guess you also dont have any contacts about me. everytime i wonder and question, people say you're just busy. those are words of comfort. but hu knows wads actually happening? our relationship whether be it our friendship or so-called "sister-ship" is very weird. sometimes i feel that we're very close. sometimes, we can drift miles and miles apart. isnt it true? everytime i'm contributing and you're not. i'm sick and pissed about this. i'm tired. i need to rest. please come and contribute something to rescue wad is about to happen to us. when you are less busy. you've got a lot of commitments. way too much. i noe. this is now our history.

but i hope sth will cause this pathetic relationship to be revived again. whether be it CPR or letters. but it shall not be me who revives it. i'm not going to revive it. and i wish you all the best for everything in your life. Os prelims are here. you're busy. all the best.

til death do us apart. silent. high hopes. big disappointment.
i've learnt my lesson.

yeas.. i noe it's kinda like a real love letter break up letter.. haiz.. i'm straight. Chill. relax.. but i cried over this. yah. ... so this was the letter i wrote to amelia. yepps. it's our history now..

song.SING.

2006-04-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing
"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time with,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing
"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

- by Fort Minor. : Where'd you go?-

fellowship. Group.

2006-04-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

heys..
2dae we went Si hui(our group leader) 's hse for group. lols.. so funn..lols..it's at Ng Teng's hse there. but she din come. lols. then we sang, and played games! =) lols.. me & si ling were the game i/cs. =) we rawked. the first game was by si ling. it's called bang & bong. if the person in the center bang you, you must raise your hands. but if they bong you, you cannot react. so it was pretty funn.. lols.. then we played the games which you stand in a circle then you shout someone's name. then the person squat then the two pple on his/her left & right must shout each other's name. then the person who shout first wins. then we oso played the blanket game.lols.. then.. we played the ball of string thing game. lols.. conducted by me. in the end, we formed this web thingy. then when the first round ended, we were like "someone can sleep in the middle". lols.. Cause Enoch wasnt playing. so Ai Zhen was like after this game ask Enoch to lie on the top. hahas.. rite.. it was like super weak lors.. lols.. then aft second round, we asked Enoch to lie on top. but in the end it failed. lols.. rite.. then we had the talent time brain storming..lols.. then had lots of food cooked by De lian yiyi. lols.. Nice.. lols.. then aft tt we slacked. we went into Si hui's room. then we were down there playing Bridge and taiti aka BIG2. lols.. but we were NOT gambling..lols.. then we play until xian.. then go outside watch tv. so farni lah the show. lols.. then we went home. it was drizzling.. lols.. then only i took out umbrella. lols.. then Sheryl they all don wanna open their umbrellas. lols.. then we walked to the MRT.. at the traffic light we all ran across. so farni.. then i keep nagging at them to take out their umbrellas.. they sae i sound like their nanny. lols.. then in the end, i realli felt like i'm bringing a two kids out liddat. excluding Si ling. lols..

It was a pretty nice afternoon. but i din manage to buy the MAGIC 8BALL!!! lols.. faith, lend me!!! lols..

//\\+end+//\\

..

2006-04-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

hahas.. muah cousin so nice.. he saw muah nick become "THE GIRL. is crying" then immediately ask me wad happened. i told him and i cried. then he ask me bout hu i can talk to. then i say no one. coz all muah classmates are not very close to me. then even the closest one dunno how to comfort me and give me advice. then muah CCA mates are not close and i dont realli like them.. lols.. at least i like some minority of them like boon hui and hui yu and fiona and shuangyi.. lols.. then he say can talk to him.. then he wont tell muah parents and his parents.. then he sae does he look like he is those hu makes small reports to others.. lols.. den i alreadi ask zimin and pei yun whether can like meet up soon to go beach or somewhere to cry or wadeva.. lols.. i hope we're able to meet up.. lols..

sad.EMOTIONAL.

2006-04-22T12:16:00.000+08:00

heys. i just sent Amelia an e-mail. it's not a happy thing. it marked the end. till a miracle happens. it is our history. i have really decided to have nothing to do with her. it is the end. or is it? i dont know. but i wont do anything to revive this friendship. and i mean it. i cried. izzit that i'm getting emotional again? it was a sad break-up. anyway.. i cried.

hahas..

2006-04-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

i'm lame.. i go and watch Channel U's Horror movie which is like every Friday nite 11.30 pm after the news..lols..
It started with dis gal she stay back to do OT. den as she was walking out this complex, she saw this flight of escalators.. then, she saw this place with a lot of mirrors. she was on her way to her friend's burfdae party..then she thought instead of buying a present, she take a mirror from a shop which looks as if it sells mirrors. then,a security guard came out of nowhere and chased her away. then she walk walk walk..and stopped in front of a mirror and put her stuff down. then she heard noises.then.. she din c anything. so she took out her mirror she stole. then it dropped onto the ground. she bent up to pick it up. but her reflection din. then she saw her reflection not doing the same thing as her, she freaked out. then her reflection used the mirror to cut its neck.and the girl died.

now i have to go and bath. and toilet has mirrors. so i'm freaking muahself out..hahahas.. so lame..=)

singSONG

2006-04-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

LOVEmakes THEworld GOround.. - by Ashlee Simpsons-
Here
Here I am again
And I'm starin at these same four walls, alone again
And now
All the colors blend
And I'm becoming old and I've become this empty page
Hold on, it's tragic
Stumbling through all this static
I just wanna talk to you
My broken heart just has no use
I guess promises are better left unsaid
Yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
My love
Look at what you've done to me
For someone who has felt so strong
It's amazing I'm completely gone
Hold on, it's tragic
Stumbling through all this staticI just wanna talk to you
My broken heart just has no use
I guess promises are better left unsaid
Yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
If that's the kind of love you'll give meI'd rather be alone, believe me
Is that the way you plan to treat me?I'd rather walk away
I just wanna talk to you
My broken heart just has no use
I guess promises are better left unsaid
Yeah
And everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
Yeah
You say love makes the world go round
Everytime you try to tell me
I don't care
You're not the only
Don't you know I'm coming back around?
'Cause I say love makes the world go round
Yeah
'Cause I say love make the world go round

2006-04-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

why Garde so pro??

cause..

Garde is BOOM dynamite

Garde is BOOm dynamite

Garde is tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick BOOM dynamite

You guys are BOOM dynamite

You guys are tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick

Sorry the fuse wont light.

hahas..
we had sports day today.yepps.aka 48th Cedar Track and field Annual Championships.=).First, it was declared open by our principal, Mrs Ouyang. then AMELIA CHUA HUI LYN, our track and field captain, led the athelics' oath.like i care who she is.lols.. then, the jog past. and all the cheering begins. =) it's so high...=) and we practically rawked the whole stadium down. Lijie din wear sprots shoes, so i lent her.. lols.. den we cheered like mad.. lols.. Amelia ran for Prefects and the 4by100.well.. for her prefects,she won.her team mates are Tammy,Grace and Elyssa i tink. lols.. so jealous.. hahas.. joking.. then things flew by.. lols.. but garde woz like absolutely pulled down by our class... hahas.. unlucky.. then in the end, we got overall 2nd for Champion house and then, 1st for CHEERLEADING!!!=))).. so funn.. lols..
then me and Raylia went for dinner together.. and i saw Faith..lols..
After dinner, we went to the library.so nerd. 8-) and we were like the only cedarians there. not until we went to borrow books at the first level..lols..

It was a nice day...=) had loads of fun..!!!=)

!..gtg..!
//-end-\\

GardeRAWKS!!!

2006-04-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

Why Garde so Pro???

Cause...

Garde is BOOM dynamite

Garde is tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick BOOM dynamite

You guys are BOOM dynamite

You guys are tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick ..

Sorry the fuse wont light.

Hahas..can you guess?Yepps! we had SPORTS day 2dae!!!=) Actually it's called the 48th Annual Track and Field Championships..lols..LONgGgGgGgG... name..lols..but it's damn nice lor..lols..I don care hu lead the oath..wadeva.. so wad?lols..den we were like cheering the whole way..So HIGH!!!lols..and den lijie used muah sports shoes to run coz she nv wear..den like so farni lors..but she din win..lols..Coz ALL trackers lor..she in vball how u expect her to win???lols..den..hahas.. we cheer for NCC during the CCA inter-unit!!!so HIGH..I clap until muah hand veri pain n red!! lols..den a lot of ex-specs come back!!!=))So funn!!! lols..hmm.. den 2wards the end, we played with Faith's Magic 8 ball.. lols.. so funni..den asked a lot of ques and got a lot of positive answers!!!=) lols.. nice ballie..lols.. it kinda got me happy..lols..

den aft sports day,me and raylia went to eat dinner and toa payoh central..lols..luckily we went early for dinner.. cant imagine if we go 2gether wif the crowd..lols..confirm no space one..lols.. den i saw Faith(from church) in her st mag's uni.. i din noe she woz in st mags.. lols.. den i woz like smsin her " heys.. you're at toa payoh the upstairs food court right?" then she woz looking arnd.. den i woz like down there waving..lols..

den aft dinner, me and raylia went library..so nerd rite? lols.. we're like tinkin we're the oni Cedarians there. & it woz true..lols..den both of us borrowed two books each..lols.. den it rained.. lols.. and we walked to the bus stop and walked to the bus stop//-end-//

lols.. am i like describing muah day to you? damn boring rite? but it woz funn in real life..lols..

i'm so bored.. slackin..watching tv & listening to Ashlee Simpsons!!!=) lols..i'm bored.. shall blog nxt time..

2mr got fellowship!!! lols.. let me publically invite everyone!!!

lols..okies..

pple.. 2mr you free? we haf fellowship at muah grp leader's hse..

If you can make it, it's 3.30pm MEet at Simei MRT.. hahas.. there'll b games, etc. so try to come!!!=)

/bye/bye/=)/

where did you go?

2006-04-21T10:15:00.000+08:00

Where did you go?

I miss you so.

Can we turn things back like before?

Like the times we share together.

The happy times.

The times you say Friends Forever.

What is FOREVER?

do you mean it?

But now you're leaving.

The cold wind blows at me.

Messes up my feelings.

My heart is broken.

**unmendable**

when will i be able to wake up from this dream?

lIFE.

2006-04-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

My life.
doesnt revolve around her.
I am NOT crazy over Amelia.
that's a point.
please get it clear.
I will NOT miss her.
Never.
what has her life got to do with me?
I'm pissed with her.
Things like that has been happening.
history is repeating itself.
Again & again.
I missed her.
But now i dont.
Life DOESNT revolve around her.
but...
sometimes i still miss her a lot.
what is the problem between us?
I thought we were the best companions,
the best friends,
and the best sisters.
It's probably just my one-sided commitment & thinking.
She is so popular.
Will she even care about me?
Shes like HELLO?IN PREFECTORIAL BOARD EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE & IS THE TRACK AND FIELD OVERALL CAPTAIN???
who am i?
a girl in 2 C
who hates NCC so much she pons them?
who plays the violin?
so what?
haiz..
Life's like this..
my heart is broken.
**unmendable
God, comfort me.
i wanna cry in someone's arms, on someone's shoulders.
somebody save me.

FiRst day. TOday.

2006-04-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

All my life

i've been waiting.

haiz. i'm super down 2dae. m i ? lols. i dunno.. I miss Amelia.. Certainly.. *sobsobs*

she nv talks to me. what kinda "sister" is she? haiz..

Maybe coz i'm sick.. went to see the doc yesterday. i got fever oso dunno.nose pain.. lols..

*sniffsniff*

haiz.. doc sae mayb haf nose infection. hahas.. lucky me..

hmmm.. 2dae had lit test. woz quite hard.. coz like not much to write about and keep tinkin tt you miss out the points.. lols.. i tink i flunked it. i wrote crap. lols..

hmmm.. 2mr's SPORTS day! lols.. looking forward to it.. lols..

Jia you to everione!=)

fading away..

-anewBEGINNING-

2006-04-20T19:21:00.000+08:00

Welcome on board.

Welcome to my life.

about me:

-xj-

13+

CedarGirls'

.NC.

(:-nice gal-:)

heys. muah first not so bad blog.

Muah besties in 6G... If you happen to visit this blog, hahas.. find the blogskin familiar???

It's frm our blog! yepps.. lols.. your eyes are NOT blur.. It is.

but most probably i tink u all forgot..lols.. COZ YOU ALL NV GO OUR BLOG LIAOS!!!

hahas.. you pple deserve a scolding from me!!! =P

lols..

pple hu noe me.. HI! yepps.. It's me! lols.. the crappy crazy gal hu is like super lame & crappy & crazy at times.Most of the time in this case.. lols..

Feel free to TAG!!! MUZ TAG!!! lols..

ahaha.. i noe muah blog is NOt perfect.

so good old zee muako promised to help me do up a nice nice blog! =)

Thanks ZeeMuako!=) YOu're the BEST!!!

I love her so muach...

lols.. joking..

gtg pple!!! will miss you all!